My 30 day no complaining challenge!

Due to a lack of time, this is going to be a short one. 

Lately, I've become one big complaining pot - and this might even be an understatement. Last year I got to know there's going to be a much dreaded delay in my work visa. Ever since, I have complained about innumerable things - and I'm not getting into details of it. I know that my family has seriously had enough of it, even though the sweet things don't complain. They're just giving me my space to deal with things. And my husband deserves an award for dealing with me the last year or so. But I have had enough. I have complained and complained and complained. And that's always been my thing. I don't complain out loud as much as in my head though. Instead of figuring out a way to make things work or just a way to be happy despite the setbacks in various circumstances, I complain. And I have realized a bitter truth which was not easy. Nobody but me is getting hurt in this. And of course, my husband first and my family after. What is the point of it then? Who's benefitting? If all an action can do is cause harm, then why continue doing it at all? Why now just find a way to make it stop? Have we become so used to complaining, that it might just feel weird if we decide to stop? 

So I am giving myself a very personal challenge - that I will try to not complain for a whole month. In my head or out loud. I know a month is long, but hey what the hell! And for everytime that I do complain, I am going to make some kind of note of it in my phone. And we'll see at the end of one month how I fared. Starting tomorrow, June 21. So the ending date is July 21. 

And this is very important especially in a time when everything's going well. Things are all working out, yes we might not know exactly the status of my work visa yet but I can't do anything about it anyway. And most definitely, complaining's not going to help. I want to be a stronger person mentally and set goals for myself to achieve. And keep on achieving. We're moving to the city soon, where there's going to be a ton more people than the suburb we live in and I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am about this. We're going to have more friends, I'm going to have more things to do! If there's anything that I can do for myself, it's stop complaining and be more positive. And the latter cannot happen when the former still persists. 

Thanks. 

My downsizing journey.

The meaning of this title is very different for me than what it appears to be. I have finally decided to hold myself accountable to losing that last bit of weight and get into that bit of shape that I have been wanting to for so long. Over the past couple of years and especially last 2 years, I have watched myself lose weight with great effort to only put it back on over one holiday or one family visiting us for 3 weeks. My husband and I travel a lot, so I do find myself a lot of times in a situation where I'm out of my regular routine and schedule to keep my exercise going. But this is no excuse to reach my goal weight or my goal body shape and I 'figured' (lol!) it was time I did something about it once and for all.

I don't believe in crash diets at all and I'm not a big believer of dieting in general, but I do believe in healthy eating. I do believe that it is better to eat a tasty salad than a pizza but if I ever do have a craving for some delicious food I'm not supposed to be eating, I will not deny myself one tiny bite. However tiny it might be, I know how to content myself with the taste in one bite. I have so many things I'd like to do but I feel getting into the best shape I can is only going to be the beginning of it. So here I am! Holding myself accountable to post my exercise routine and food journal atleast thrice a week.

Current weight - 125-126lbs
Target weight - 120-121lbs
Target date - (now this is the fun part) - July 15, 2015.
Current date - May 27, 2015

I have about a month and a half to get to where I want and not that I'm in bad shape or anything, I just want to lose those last few pounds that are sometimes the hardest and tone. Keyword here being tone. I have a CPA exam on July 1 so I will excuse myself the last 3-4 days before the exam but nothing more. I currently have a schedule where I work on Tuesdays (6pm-8pm), Wednesdays (9am-4pm) and Fridays (2pm-6pm) and since it's summer our weekends are filled with outdoor activities like hiking and we are hosting friends and families for 3 weekends until July 15. So as you can see, a month back I was complaining I don't have enough on my plate (!!!) and now it's busier than expected. All of the above with studying for a CPA exam, cooking and taking care of a home and exercising and healthy eating.

Anyway, here is a picture from this morning's breakfast of healthy options (omelette with a whole lotta veggies, baked potatoes, fruits and orange juice). See you on the other side of July 15, 2015 with hopefully great results. Did I mention I'm going to be in California then? :D

Love, 

T